I Used To Cut

I used to cut for all the pain I felt inside
I used to wonder what would happen if I died
Would anyone even fucking care?
Would anyone wish that I'd still be here?

I used to cut for all the fears inside of me
It would haunt me and my mind was soon my enemy
Death was always on my mind
And happiness was so hard to find

I used to cut because I was so angry
I used to fucking hate my family
They would always fucking yell and scream
And I'd sit there wishing it was all a dream

I used to cut because of all the hurt
I used to feel like nothing but dirt
It seemed like no one fucking cared
And all the time I would be scared

I used to cut because I felt alone
Always bored, and always home
I never really had plans
Because I was always depressed and no one would understand

I used to cut because I enjoyed the pain
And I enjoyd the sight of blood falling like rain
I loved looking at these scars
Because I knew my life wouldn't go too far

I used to cut, yea but I learned my lesson
Somehow, someway I got a blessing
I don't cut anymore because I don't have as much pain inside of me
I don't have as many fears haunting me
Lately I havent been so angry
And lately I feel so fucking loved
And I don't feel so alone because an angel has been sent from above

I have stopped this self-mutilation
Because I've got a blessing
This angel from above has come to earth
Because of her there's a reason for my birth

I stopped for my best friend
And cutting is something I'll never do again
It hurts her and tears her apart
And I don't want that to happen because it breaks my heart

I love her, and I never want her to be upset with me
And lately I've been so happy
Just thinking of her brings a smile to my face
And she is someone who cannot be replaced

She can make me smile
Although it might take a while
She's helped me get through this life
And I shall never pick up that knife